August Ramblings

August was a bit of a roller coaster month for me. I think we were travelling more than we were home all month. We went to the coast for 3 days. Spent one night in Crescent City, California, and one night in Arcata, California. Going to the coast is always bittersweet for me though. I love the ocean and the coast, and I love driving through the redwoods, but the coast is far from wheelchair friendly. Usually the closest to the ocean I can get is about a quarter mile away. Sand and wheelchairs really don’t go well together. We made the best of it though, and saw some places we had never been to before.

The very next weekend, we drove down to Davis, California for my grandmother’s memorial. This was both a happy and sad occasion. I miss my grandparents terribly and always will, but I am happy that Grandma is at peace and hopefully reunited with Grandpa. Even with the sad occasion, it is always good to see family that I haven’t seen in forever. It’s always too short of a visit though.

I spent all of last week up in Portland, 7 days total. It was great to spend time with my brother and see old friends. I met up with a few photographer friends, and met some new friends. I was a really hot week though, and with the added humidity (it’s much dryer in Talent) it was rough, especially so since the AC died in my van the day before driving to Portland. I was really tired too. Some days it really feels like I have only gotten more tired everyday for the past 8 years, and everyday I feel like I’m the most tired I’ve ever been and can’t fathom actually being any more tired, yet the next day day I’m more tired. ALS is brutal that way.

I also feel like I hit a photographic wall last month, and I’m still trying to find a way over it. I haven’t felt really inspired by the photos I’ve been doing, and I’ve been left wondering “why”. Why am I taking these photos? To what end? For most of August I feel like I just put my head down and forged on regardless, focusing on just taking photos of where I was rather than for any more artistic reason. Inspiration comes and goes, it will come again.

For most of August, I had the same 36 frame roll of expired FujiPro 400H in my Contax G2. It was from a large lot of expired film I got on ebay. It was supposedly refrigerator stored, but it wasn’t as good as I’d hoped it would be. That’s the beauty (and downside) of shooting film though. After all that time spent shooting a roll of film, you get what you get and you have to make the best of it… kinda like life…

 

These are all from that one roll,

 

 Arcata, California.

Arcata, California.

Arcata, California.

Davis, California.

Davis, California.

Ashland, Oregon.

Ashland, Oregon.

Ashland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

Portland, Oregon.

 

4 Comments

  1. David Salmon September 1, 2016

    I really like the wall painting photograph. Color contrast to the rest is strong, but the image really holds together. I love the drains and the manhole, and the yellow stripe, the composition really works. There is seriousness and humor, the strange and the ordinary. I wonder what it would be in black and white, probably not as good. I take so much time thinking about things, I do not do well with being tired, OK with thinking. Last year I tasted tired, but just tasted it. I love how you see, it helps me see better.

  2. Kevin Rosinbum September 2, 2016

    Creativity walls are rough… I’ve been in a slump as well. The last few rolls I’ve shot have been less than I was hoping for overall, partially because I don’t think I was putting as much into it, just feeling like I was sort of ‘showing up’ with the camera. I think that’s where quite a bit of GAS comes into play, accumulating new stuff to gain a bit spark, but I’ve been purposefully trying to prevent myself from doing that, other than picking up a good amount of new (old) film. I’ve a roll 220 NHG-II in the 67 from a box that picked up for next to nothing, but it needs a definite test roll (this one) to figure out how it’s aged…. but I’m afraid even that impetus hasn’t helped some pretty boring shots and a slow uninspired slog through the 20 frames (still have 5 to go and it’s been a month). I find myself taking the same shots I have in the past every once in a while just to shoot another frame of it.
    Come on spark. Hope it find you again as well!

  3. Swift1 September 2, 2016

    Thank you, David.

  4. Swift1 September 2, 2016

    Thanks Kevin.
    Ya, 220 film can be a tough slog, and being in a creative slump really doesn’t help. I’ve been shooting 220 in my ETRSI and getting through 30 frames can take forever! GAS can help get inspiration, but I think it’s counterproductive as it keeps you (me) from staying focused on just the images instead of gear. I should talk though…

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